its the drug i'm needing

the blackest black, she thinks thats where she is.
sinking into a hole on the dirtiest sidewalk in america.
she belongs with the cigarette butts and broken beer bottles.
scratching out her fears with her fingernails,
she wants more.
her mind is clouded with unattainable things.
holding on to dreams she can't ignore.
out of the corner of her eye, she looks for you.
anyone to give her a hand.
for some reason, you take her at face value.
and she belongs with the cigarette butts and broken beer bottles.

song of the day: Lust by The Raveonettes

This song blows my mind everytime I hear it. Its dark, lusty, and mysterious. I love it so much. From the opening line "I fell out of heaven to be with you in hell" I can already relate. Sharin Foo's voice is intoxicating and lovely. Download it now!


download!!!

I fell out of heaven
To be with you in hell
My sins not quite seven
Nothing much to tell
Lust I have and crave
A saintly boy I'm not
I'll take it to my grave
Beside it cursed I'll rot

I'll ride these roads alone
Beneath the sulphur sky
Everywhere I roamed
Life's one big lie
When the fireball goes down
Out by LA ways
I come into town
But only for a day

Starving on my knees
I pray for you to understand
A man sure is weak
But lust holds my hand
I struggled and I cried
I pounced with no avail
I least I never lied
Or did the truth derail

kill yr idols!!!

kill em.

LOU REED
Well, apparently, he's a pretentious jackass...but who cares? Man he's the coolest dude around. As the lead singer of the Velvet Underground he sang about S&M, heroin, transvestites, and other low culture topics that were rare in the 70s. The founder of punk. I love lou.

NICO
Nico was also a singer for the Velvet Underground. She is beautiful, but deadly. She has this crooning, deep voice and is simply insane. Even though she was so beautiful, no one in the band would date her because she was just the weirdest person they knew. Woohoo for the pretty weirdos.

IEKELIENE STANGE
Super cool model who isn't like the others. She goes to Misshapes parties and wears weird glasses. Heeerooo.


CORY KENNEDY
You know. She's becoming less grunge more spoiled hispter. Dont know how I feel about that....but oh well, she's on my list.


MATT DILLON
This is a really young pic of him...but there were no good ones from Drugstore Cowboys which is one of my favorite movies ever because Matt Dillon stares as this freaky spazed out dope addict who steals drugs for a living. Reminds me of a certain senior boy I keep having dreams about. ;)


DEV HYNES "LIGHTSPEED CHAMPION"
Ex-guitarist for the Test Icicles now gaining fame from his solo album 'Galaxy of the Lost', Devonte Hynes has an awesome signature style that I go crazy for. His hair is neat. His glasses are always neat. He is the neatest!!!!

...or else!

i'd just like to comment that private school sucks. yeah yeah yeah, we're smart, yeah, yeah, yeah, we get a better education than you, yeah, yeah, yeah, its the good life.
but i am so tired of it. my life priorities are all outta wack. I mean forrealz, everyone around me is like "I'm going to kill myself if I get a B-, blah blah blah." And i know I should put school at a higher priority because C's are just not cool, but does it have to be the NUMERO UNO????!

i recieved this email today from my chemistry teacher::

"Shelby, it appears that I do not have your lab book --- failure to submit a lab book is an automatic failure for the trimester. I will take it tomorrow before we leave for community service, otherwise it will turn to a zero"

I read that like 8 times before I got to the point: failure to submit a lab book is an automatic failure for the trimester. like WHAT????!!!!!! its a stupid book and i'm going to fail Chemistry for it?! Jesus.
How snobby is that!? "It appearrsssssss i do not have your labbook." Shuv it up your ass, mr. b. SHOVE IT.

she's got the power in her hands to shock you like you won't believe

I'm so bored. My life is becoming the time in between.
In between the next weekend. In between the next school day, when I have to work. In between the times I get to sleep. In between my next chance to live.
Can we just cut out this bullshit and get on to the real shit?

My eyes are permanetly half closed, and they are developing these horrible bags that just wont go away.
I'm all black and blue and a little fuzzy around the edges. I keep blinking but nothing gets clearer.

I am the robot, doing what I am told.

I had my face like the ocean, so i'd radiate

sadies was tonight. i got ready with zoe and went to dinner with some peeps. we did weird things. today i fell in love with the velvet underground and atlas sound.

I don't know just where I'm going
But I'm gonna try for the kingdom, if I can
'Cause it makes me feel like I'm a man
When I put a spike into my vein
And I'll tell ya, things aren't quite the same
When I'm rushing on my run
And I feel just like Jesus' son
And I guess that I just don't know
---
'Cause when the blood begins to flow
When it shoots up the dropper's neck
When I'm closing in on death
And you can't help me now, you guys
And all you sweet girls with all your sweet talk
You can all go take a walk
And I guess that I just don't know

- Heroin - the velvets

got bored at starbucks.



ate sushi.
cleaned up a mess with a paddie
oh sweet days.
mine has a blue star.
she was taking to long...

as a tribute to the new book, Punk House: Interiors in Anarchy, i am putting up some random ass pictures of my room. for those of u who havn't seen it.

why am i more concerned with which tit is bigger? i should be freaking out about my impending english final....but instead im just staring down wondering y god made me so defective. ask THAT question at church.

hipster is not nessarily a bad word

i'm tired of people calling me a 'hipster' and then complaining about how much hipsters suck. i think people are getting 'hipster' confused with 'scenester'....which is death. soooooo since i trust urbandictionary.com with my life i will SHOW YOU why hipsters are better.

Scenester: A person who is scene, obviously. The basic goal of a scenester is to be non-conformist, and in order to do that, they conform to the scene style. In other words, they are a complete and utter poser. Typical scene style and behavior consists of: -short, choppy, black hair (this is a must for males and females), often with a stripe or chunk of an unnatural color or bleach. -band shirts, generally emo bands -skinny jeans for girls, girls jeans for guys -Converses or Vans -bright colors paired with black -polka dots -dinosaurs, robots, or other kiddyish fantasy-type ideas -girly ribbons for girls -Myspace account, with tons of pouty pictures at weird angles -typing (and often talking) with weird phrases, like HARDXCORE, KTHNXBAI, and others

Hipsters: 15-25 year olds who love indie rock, modern poetry, art galleries, thrift stores, and independent films. Generally they dress in band t-shirts, subdued blazers, and jeans (not too loose or too tight). They have messy (generally) non-dyed brown hair.

Not to be confused with scenesters. Hipsters are pretty cool besides their snobby pretension, but scenesters are vain idiots. If you're not sure if someone is one way or the other, ask them if they have a MySpace. If they excitedly give you their address and go on and on about it, it's a scenester. If they stare blankly it's a hipster.



ok so i do have a myspace....but it's only so i can view pics of bands and shit like this. :D



sooooooooooooo. there ya go, fools.

i found love, i saw stars all in the backseat of your car

ooh girl shock me like an electric eel.

some things would only happen to me and z. some sentances would only be uttered in z and i's presence. like

"c: wer'e looking at bording school in vermont.... :l
me: BOAaRRDING SCHOOL????!
c: i know
me: shit, man.
c: THEREPUTIC bording school"

***

z: why does David have like post-braces straight teeth and Joel has LeoQue teeth
me: maybe..................................joel is wild
z: like refused braces?
me: yes
me: he seems like the type
z: i want to ask him, but it could be awkward
z: like "my parents were too poor to get my teeth fixed" awkward

***
condawg: yo mamma
me: YO mamma, BITCH
condawg: im sorry i must have mistaked you f or someone with a brain
condawg: sorry
me: u make 0 sense
condawg: 100% of the time
condawg: 0=10000
condawg: well
condawg: 60 percent if the time i make 0 sense all the t ime
me: lay off the crack

***
eriq and i have best convos EVA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me: i have this strange desire for 50 Cent
eriq: u can give up on that
me: ahahahah
me: i'm too ugly
eriq: no ur not
me: then waht?
me: oh.
me: he's 50 Cent. and i'm a white 14 year old.

oh im outta touch with all my friends, their somewhere gettin wasted.

I have 2 finals done, 3 more to go. I don't have to go to school until 1 tomorrow so i get to sleep the fuck in. and god knows i need my effing sleep. i'm so exhausted from dealing with finals AND shit. i wanna go to sleeeeeeeeeeeeep.

zzzzz....

when they get back their all mixed up with no one to stay with

so heartschallenger has been sparking my interest lately. if you dont know wtf that is then
a) your not cool
b) FIND OUT!
so i've included a lil snippet from their myspace.

"HEARTSCHALLENGER IS A 21ST LIFESTYLE BRAND WHICH USES
ICE CREAM TRUCKS AS OUR PRIMARY VEHICLE TO SPREAD
MESSAGES OF THE D.I.Y SPIRIT. OUR 1ST TRUCK (THE PINK ONE)
IS ON A WORLD TOUR AND HAS GONE FROM LOS ANGELES TO
NEW YORK AND IS SOON TO HIT SXSW (AUSTIN) AND WMC (MIAMI)
AFTER WHICH WE BEGIN PREPPING FOR LONDON, PARIS AND FINALLY TOKYO.

WHO: HEARTSCHALLENGER

WHAT: HC PROVIDES A SPARK OF LIFE TO A WIDE
VARIETY OF EVENTS. WE STOCK INTERNATIONAL ICE CREAM,
CANDY AND TOYS. WE ALSO SHOWCASE ARTISTS FROM ALL

AROUND THE WORLD LIKE DJ'S, GRAFFITI ARTISTS, DESIGNERS,ETC."

yea. I have their super-sweet t-shirt pictured in this post.

i've also got sum pics from thecobrasnake.com.

basically they are just this lil hipster-serving fun-loving pink van that travels and sells sweet shit.

Hey what do you say I got a 15 million dollar contract coming my way

so this weekend was weird...
i went to this david (DAHH-VEEED) garza concert. and it was totally amazing. it was so tiny, there was only like 50 people there, it was so great.
me and my friend, z, know david because his brother is z's english teacher.
so basically we hung out with our english teacher and sat severely unsatisfied while a bottle of tequila was passed around the room and subsequently our english teacher got a touch tipsy. friday nights with our teachers, that definetly sounds like me and z.
we have already decided that we are the craziest freshman girls who have the most fun.
this is for z:

• sex noises in the locker room courtesy of your bose headphones
• "ITS THE DRUGGGGS" -----maintenance man walks in -----"that was a joke!!"
  
• apples and cars.
  
• ms. jodi watkins
• the gummy bear king and queen
• hysterical laughing at things that are pretty horrible
• finding notes on the ground and hyper-analyzing them.
  
• good puppies.
• estimations
  

other than that...the weekend consisted of studying/procrastinating studying for finals. finals are horrible, i can't have any fun without feeling like a total slacker. Like right now, even as I type this blog post, I know that i will potentially fail my chinese exam because I have no idea what 一 下 means. or 漂 for that matter.

my trainer is pregnant and sickie so I got out of church this weekend. (!!!). Its the weirdest thing...me going to church. I just stick out like a sore toe. i am not cute. well....maybe im cute but not in that christian way. the christian girls definetly have a LOOK. you know?

The Dø - A Mouthful

This is probably the craziest album I have encountered in all my years of tender music loving. In short, this album is all over the place. It starts out with this pretty sweet song with children screaming "we are not crazy! we are not afraid of you grown-ups!!!" Its pretty much kid-friendly noise that transcends musical stereotypes. The rest of the album continues in this almost folky, flowy sound that wraps you in its warm sweet arms.

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